Joy Luck Club

Went for Lit screening today, the "Joy Luck Club" at the AV theatrette.... Sat at the back row coz wanted to sneak out halfway to go for tution lyk ard 3.30. But by then dint feel like leaving and going for tution liao so juz stayed and watched the whole thing =D Wahhhhhhhhhhhh so nice at the back row... Nobody will see wad you're doing hahaha... And a whole bunch of ppl were eating there even though Mrs Tan told us not to. I mean lyk anyone will listen to her lolx. And itz really cosy at the back row =P hahaha..

The movie was quite sad larh... (not boring and plot-less like someone said) well at least i enjoyed it.. Dun ask me why.. I juz find it nice =) Yepz and i dunnoe if you hafta be "emotional and romantic" to enjoy it but it'll tug at ur heartstrings if you're the type whom cries at sad movies haha..

Was late for tution. Janani was saying something abt a "bull in Chinatown" and i was like ???? huh?? wad the hell?? Den when i reached home i realized it was "bull in a china shop" ...................... Janani righttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt............. -_- lolx..

Tmr teachers' day celebrations and blasted aces day. Gawd the dance is sooooooo embarrassing... Sheesh! Yah den dunnoe wadz going on after sch.. Wadever larh.. Oh and tmr got the teacher dress-up thingy.. Lol it shud be interesting to see wad the sch ppl will do to the poor teachers.. Lolx i kinda feel sorry for them... And dunnoe wad will happen to Mrs Taufiq and Mr Zain... Haha..

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

Wad the hell

*They say that everything you go through in life It's what you become If thats the case yeah I'm becoming number 1*

Yepz today was one of the days when i feel like indulging in extreme violence=P haha... lolx ok fine i was kidding abt the violence part but yeah... it was one of the very bad days tt makes you wanna crawl back under the covers and sleep the day away. Dint have the option of going back home to sleep the day away coz of MEP... Which went horribly coz got 2 big shocks there......

Today sucked. Becoz...........

No1. Got some pretty bad news frm a fren. I did not hafta noe this peice of news and id rather not haf known. But like it or not, ive heard abt it and ive given it some thought. Ive toked to some ppl abt it and they've told me not to worry abt it and tt i juz hafta ignore it. Like jing wen so aptly put it "it is under these kinda circumstances tt you find out who ur true frens are". i agree and yes this has shown me one or two things abt some ppl...

No2. FAILED MY MEP COMPOSITION CA. i think im the only from 2e9'03 who failed. And one of the two whom failed it in the sec 3 lvl. Stupid.... Cmon larh it was our first attempt at composing rite?? Sheesh cant blame me for trying.............

No3. I have nobody to do piano duet with for MEP second instrument exam. Thanks to michelle whom had told me tt she wasnt ready wif her 2nd instrument and tt she'll do piano duet with me. But den today tell me tt oops she's gone on and agreed to do it with someone else. Wow tt's great news at the end of the day rite?? So good larh i guess i might as well go fail the 2nd instrument exam as well huh?

Yupz so i guess tt'z it... Ok fine mebbe it doesnt sound so bad here... But really, when you recieve these shocks in the span of 2 hours, the stress accumulating on you is kinda overwhelming... Took a lot of self control to not self inflict damage on myself and to not let the tears show. Felt so alone the whole of MEP, felt abandoned.... At least now cool down oready larh.. and hopefully kimmie will do the duet with me [kim plz plz plz plz plz plz =)] other than tt i dunnoe wad to do with the other stuff.. To hell with wadever people wanna say abt me... To hell with MEP...

Good luck to Jocelyn for her grade 8 piano exam tmr!!!!!! You go gurl!!!!!!!!! =D

Changes

Have juz recieved a slap back to reality, back to this screwed up world i live in... I cannot understand some of the things happenening aorund me, i dun understand why. All the weird changes tt shud not be happening yet are.... Lol i hope i dun sound too abstract.

Am feeling pretty disappointed in a fren's attitude. Im disappointed and sad tt this person, whom i consider quite a close fren, has had tiz big 180 degrees change in her attitude. When i try to tell her something, she used to listen. But now, when i try to tell her how i feel, she either just tells me her point of view and not hear me out, or she tells me wad or wad not to do. When im upset over something, she doesnt act like she cares. All she wants to do is to tok to me abt herself. If she's concerned for me, then she's got a very funny way of showing it. I feel i cannot trust her, cannot tok to her... Im really surprised tt she no longer seems to regard me as a close fren becoz im not in the same class as her. Im beginning to feel tt she's putting her new class mates in front of me. I wudnt mind tt but im sick and tired of telling you something and being ignored. I really dun comprehend wads going on... Theres no point pretending i enjoy her company.. but i dun want to let this frenship rot away..

Kiran once told me tt i hafta make a choice of who i want to concentrate on building a true frenship with. Those whom arent worth my time, arent worth my trust, arent worth my loyalty, arent worth my frenship, i shudnt be concentrating on it. But those whom are true... i shud treasure more. But wad happens if this person izzen exactly worth it.. but you dunt want to gif it up either?? Wad do you do then??

Im surprised tt im pondering over something so trivial like tiz.. But i guess this souring of frenship stems from another issue. One which i wud rather not discuss here. Itz like she feels so enthu abt something yet im beginning to get bored by this same somthing when it was the other way round the last time.. (am i making sense? >.<) so basically im losing interest in something we haf in common and i think she has something against tt. I dunnnoe....

I really dont noe wad to think.. really dont noe wad to do.

Sick & Tired

Title says it all... And managed to bunk MEP today coz wasnt feeling good.. And my brain was pretty messed up in the firz place so yah. Was so pissed off with sharon, jing wen and ain. I was hoping tt they wud haf waited and straight after photo taking ran all the way up to mep room, grabbed stuff and ran down to bus stop again. But duh, they oready left for parkway BK.. Shud haf known... So i guess the fact tt i waited for sharon and jing wen during their photo taking was obviously forgotten larh. Ok fine. Never mind... Im pretty used to tt feeling of being let down... Ok shall shut up now.

Juz came back from the clinic coz my mum dragged me all the way dere.. And the doc thinks im not sick enuff for an mc. Damn i wanted to skip school. Somehow im dreading going to sch tmr... Plus the fact tt i hafta stay back alone till 5/6 oclock coz of MEP... And im getting bad feelings abt tmr. Lolx i wish i cud turn back time to tuesday...

Sigh not good... Today obviously sucked and tmr's not likely to be any better.. But muz be optimistic and hope for the best?? Yah i guess... Cant slip back into depression...

Ronald Susilo lost!!! So sad... Neway i guess Singapore ought to be proud of him for doing his best =) hehe hey it is an acheivement to acctually get into olympics quarter finals so yah... =D

She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
I know where you hide

Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Owww...

Had weird little psycho fantasy with pain in sch today... Was so frustrated with all tt zany parade planning shit tt i decided to take it out on the wall by the toilet next to our class. Hehe i love tt wall now coz itz got my blood on it =D

Ok before the ppl reading tiz think ive gone completely insane, i havent. Was frustrated abt the fact tt the class wasnt listening to ain's and my argument abt the skirt.. It wud haf been fine if they had paid attention and considered it den said no but i felt like we dint get the chance to get our views across. Wadz the point of voting on an idea when all you hear r negative views from ppl prejudiced against tt idea. So i blew my top and stormed outta class. Im not an emotional shitbag but i felt so stifled and forced to do stuff i dunt want to. So i took my frustrations out on disha (Sorry.... Thanx for being my punching bag..=P) but den i moved on to bashing up the wall. Lolx then all the ppl outside were like stop it.. (thanx to those ppl too if not i wud haf broken some knuckles or something hehe)But they solved the whole damn problem in the end so yah..... Sigh my poor hand...

Had a sudden "flashback" to 2003 when i was outside class.. Back to when it felt like it was one person against the whole damn world (class).. But had to snap outta it coz it was emaths...

Hoobastank concert tiz Saturday at sentosa. Damn, cant go =(

Note to self: Physical pain is NOTHING compared to emotional pain.

National Day Celebrations!

Lolx pardon the previous entry.. I was pissed off wif myself and i decided to take it out on the computer.. But im alright now so yeah =)

Yesterday was national day celebrations and wow school was a myriad of colours.. A lot of ppl were wearing the ethnic costumes or red & white... Funny how come our school makes us wear ethnic costumes on national day instead of racial harmony.. But nvm larh.. It was fun taking all the photos but damn hot in the hall... Lolx.. During concert watched the teachers embarrass themselves trying to sing national song thingys.. Lolx it was hilarious i tell u.. Comment on the tchers: Mrs Lopez can sing (in a weird way) cept dun EVER try to hit the high notes again. Mdm Lee shud give up singing completely.. Mr Yap sang too enthu-ly but he can sing i guess..... Lolx.. But oh well... it was cute anyway.. Left everyone laughing and rolling ard on the floor hahaha...

Then after sch went TM wif Ain, Sharon, Jocelyn, Jing Wen and Jing Wen's cousin.. Me and ain wanted to go tm by bus and so we went videoworld to get a drink first but i ended up knocking over a sprite bottle and the thing exploded on the floor (sigh...) Later we changed our minds coz too crowded. Then we met the rest at paya lebar mrt... They initally wanted to abandon me and ain and go bugis instead. Managed to convince them to eat lunch at tm firz.. Den blah blah blah catfight *meow* and we ended up in Pizza hut wif tension sizzling in the air... Which is kinda bad.. But it didnt end up wif ppl throwing pizzas ard so tt'z ok i guess... Wanted to go take neoprints but it sooooooo crowded tt we decided tt we wud rather not haf ppl shoving their elbows in our faces so we left tm withoung taking np..

Den sharon and jocelyn went bugis... ain went home and i was sposed to go parkway. (keyword here: sposed to)... Then more blah blah blah shant bore u wif details... Lolx... hehehe...

Wheeeeeeeeeeee 4 more days of slacking.... I am sooooo gonna enjoy myself.. The best thing is tt there're no tests to study for so who cares.. I'll prob spend all my time online or sumthing haha... Ahha enjoy ur national day hols.... And before i forget, Happy National Day!! Happy 39th Birthday Singapore!!!! =D

I hate myself.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I DID THAT.. WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING ABT ANYWAY?!?! OMG... THE BUS JUST ARRIVED AND I SHUD HAVE GOT UP! WHY DID I WALK AWAY?!?!?! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!WHY WHY WHY?!?!?!?! OMG I AM SO STUPID!!!! WAD DID I DO THAT FOR?!?!? SHIT!!!!!! URGH!!!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIF ME?!?!?!?!

ihatemyself.

Thanx A Lot!!!!

Haf not had time to blog coz was studying for stupid ss.. Been wanting to blog abt the productions but better late than never so here goes.......

Two nights ago (31st July, Saturday) was the last of the four nights of our TKGS Drama and Dance productions.. The finale of finales.. The last of all tt staying up late to take off make-up, all the flowers and chocolates, all the anxiety of performing for a sold out audience.. Hahaha i can never forget the experience of all the pre-show hugging, the make-up sessions, Mr Yap running ard wif the food, the audience, the rushing to get out of the studio with our costumes flying everywhere, the dance, the satisfaction and everything to do with the production.. I can still imagine it all in my head.. Haha.. I guess tt night was kinda bittersweet.. Finally haf time to go home early to zzzzzz.. or to study for some test or another.. But itz sad tt itz over so fast. All those months of preparation for d&d, all tt panicking for these 4 nights but these 4 nights have come and gone.. But it was a really really fun time i tell u.. Glad i had the chance to do tiz =)

And i noe this izzen some oscar speech but i wud like to thank the backstage ppl for working to make these 4 nites a huge success and yeah big thank u to the other cast ppl, pleasure working wif u guys (thanx kiran, nad and nissa for flower!!!!!) Wanna thank the ppl i noe for coming (Jazreel, Yiwei, Shiyu, Brenda, Kim, Bixia, Sharon, Jocelyn, Amirah, Angela, Yan See, Janani, Esther L, Swee Huang, Disha, Evelyn, Iva, Xinen, Astrid and Ain) Did i get all of em right?? hehehe.. Thanx for turning up and getting me flowers/chocs.. Hehe pink flowers rock!!! Although some of the flowers dieded oready, itz the tot tt counts rite =D haha thanx for supporting d&d!! Hope u guys enjoyed the show =)

Yeah.. ttz abt it.. Tmr got damn amaths class test on functions and i really shud be studying but well i din wanna forget to blog abt production. So here it is..

P.S Hey!! Heres ur thank you or do u still want it face to face?? =P hehe i think u noe who u are.. Thanx for the chocolate but im still waiting for my bouquet yeah?? Haha.. Nope i din hafta put in extra effort for the make-up but i oready have so juz appreciate it alrite lolx.. And lemme noe when u want ur stupid "big hug".. I still think itz lame.. Hahaha =P